The four words that forever changed me. BY: Christopher Agudo

Hello.
I write this letter to inform you, the reader, how I have been forever changed. No, I do not mean it in the traditional sense, I mean it in the eternal sense.

What am I referring to? What four words have changed me? As the title indicates?

LIVING. IS. SO. BIG.

You just read them. Now you are probably wondering just how exactly these four words changed me. Well, in the most profound way I must say. 

I was at my wits end in the beginning of 2010 and didn't see anymore point to life because of a plethora of different things that were occurring. I didn't focus on any of the beautiful or positive things in my life at that time. I only focused on the handful of shitty things that corroded my mind. I let them convince me that life wasn't worth living. 

As time went on, I got to the point where I went through with an attempt to end my life. This landed me in a psychiatric hospital for about 7 days. Moving forward, the true healing and epiphany hit me when I heard my dad speak four words, "Living Is So Big."

Turns out, while I was dwelling in the psych hospital for those 7 days, my dad was on a mission. He ordered wristbands with the words "Living Is So Big" on them. He created this website and had friends and family write their reasons why living is so big for them and submit them on the website, like this post you are now reading. He was busy doing all these things and more, so that when I was released from the psych hospital, he would introduce to me all that he had done...  (read more)

And so it happened, I got picked up by my parents on that 7th day when i was released from that place. Excited that I was finally out of that place and just happy to know I was going to be sleeping on a comfy bed and back in the real world. Within the time of that day, he surprised me with the positive reinforcement and shared with me those four words and showed me all he had been working on.

I was shocked. I felt like I had hit the lottery in a sub-conscious manner because it was a feeling I had never felt before. A blast of real, legitimate, mind-altering programming that made me think differently in that moment and every moment onward. Living Is So Big.

I put the wristband on immediately. I scavenged this living is so big website. Reading people's posts as to why living is so big for them. I accepted all I could. It was like a new found drug that just made sense. My brain could not have enough. That day moving forward, the wristband with the words living is so big would always be on my wrist.

I think you get where I am going with this. I mean, I'm sure I would have decided to live moving forward even if my dad didn't introduce to me those four words, but I may have been treading along life, bland with a lack of appreciation for it, and that is just as bad as not living at all.

The fact of the matter is, because he introduced those four words to me, I gained a new-found appreciation for life, for myself, for others, for living. It was legitimate. It is the key in life. It was necessary. It was amazing and it was literally from those four words. I wouldn't have it any other way. Yeah, that part of my life where I was depressed and all that nastiness was occurring was terrible, but I moved on from it, it was just a chapter in my life, an experience, an unfortunate experience. But I left the darkness and arrived into the light. I gained appreciation. I gained the knowledge that LIVING IS SO BIG.

My parents are super heroes because even though I know and have known since a young child that they would always be there for me and support  me through anything, they turned into superman and wonder woman during that dark part of my life to help me regain my life.  My Dad Did ALL That Effort To Make ME Realize That LIVING IS SO BIG. AND IT WORKED. 

My Brother Is Pretty Awesome As Well. Because As a Brother He Has Always Been There And Watched Out For Me As An Older Brother.

If You Are Going Through something Dark, Reach Out For Help Because There Are people Who Care About You. Check Out The Rest Of This Awesome Website. Most importantly... REALIZE THAT LIVING IS SO BIG. AND DON'T YOU FORGET IT! =)