LIVING IS SO BIG... The Side No one Knows

Well....I just want to start this story by introducing myself.

My name is Liann and I am 15. I had a hard life. I was taken from my mom at 3 years old, and lived with my grandmother. My dad was out of the picture. When i was 6, I was taken from my gramma, because i was being abused both physically and sexually. They placed me in a foster family, and they adopted me 3 years later. I loved them and trusted them, which at that point in my life, was really hard to do.

Over the years, my adopted family got abusive. I was taken from there when i was 14 years old. Now at this point, I didn't trust anyone, and my behavior was awful. I used to cut myself...and it would help. Then, as things went downhill...i would hold knives up to my heart, and think constantly about killing myself. I would cry a lot when no one was looking, and I tried to get close to God, but it seemed like nothing worked....

One day, i grabbed an electrical cord, making it into a noose, and hung it from a hook in my front porch. I hung myself... But my adopted mother walked in just in time...she held me up, and saved me. If she hadn't I would not be here...And i knew then that God wanted me to be here...that I was here for a purpose. And that alone made me happy, because I knew that I DID belong.

I suffered a lot of bullying, and it really got me down. But i turned my life around. And I can see that other people have it worse, and they keep their walk for life going. and I want to be one of those strong people, who everyone say,"That girl went through a lot, and look at where she is today..."

It's worth it...I'm telling you right now, if you are considering suicide please consider me...don't do it, because there is someone out there who is listening just like me...And I'll tell you...it gets so much easier. Do NOT give up. DO NOT GIVE UP...